Monday, February 29, 2016
Love this quirky little fellow of a day. The Google Doodle today has a little bunny for 29 leaping in, easing into a spot he makes for himself between 28 and 1 and snuggling down. Very pleasing to me. There's something so quaint and anachronistic about our calendar, I see something rebellious about today. The fact that our orbit doesn't fit nicely in to the box of days we offer it and so we have to make it work a bit better, make it room with an extra day every four years. I like that.
I guess I identify with that. I feel like the extra bunny a lot of the time. Trying to find my space. I watched X+Y at the weekend and sort of loved it and sort of hated it. The ending? Anyway it left me sobbing, wretched for Luke who was holding it all together when he was weird and gifted but doesn't know what to do with himself in the world when the gifted label is taken away. He doesn't know how to make himself the right shape. I wish we were allowed to be odder. I don't like how much energy I give to trying to be the right shape. I am trying to love my awkward. I honour it today.